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:'(
malam malam cam gyni ,
so , selain onl , blog walking laa kejupp kenn
so , decide blog walkign dekat blog wawa
then , terbace satu entry niyy
duhhh (!) sumpah sedihh :'(
nahh , bace jeaa laa ,
cerite panjang panjang pun tak guna juga ritee .
"You started to change before you died. I don't know what else to say than to express our convo in my blog.
10th of May 2010
I just got home from school and I received two text messages from you. I ignored them and went bathing. After taking my bath, I watched tv for awhile and I realized that I haven't replied your messages so I quickly went to my room to take my cell. I received another 2 messages from you so equally, I received 4 messages from you.
You : B?
You : B? Mana b?
You : Reply la :(
You : B? Mana b? Knapa lambat sangat balik?
I was seriously waaay too scared if he might be scolding me for not replying his messages for quite a while. So I quickly messaged him, to not make him worry about me.
Me : Sayang? Sorry tak reply td. I balik sekolah terus mandi td. Then I tgk tv terlupa msg you. Sorry? You marah ke?
You : Oh okay okay. Tak, I tak marah. Tp jangan buat I risau k bie?
Me : Okay okay, sayang. I'm sorry.
You : Tkpe, mwa mwa hehe. B dekat mana ni?
Me : Dekat rumah. Lepasni nak pergi makan dgn mak. You?
You : Ala, nak makan dekat mana? Jumpa lah I b :( I dkt cabin. Bosan.
Me : I LAPAR!
You : Makan dgn I k bie?
Me : I want to but mak suruh teman dia lah syg.
You : Okay okay, I main badminton dgn budak budak lah.
Me : Okay, take care busuk.
You : Mana ada busuk. B ah buchuk macham. Kalau balik awal, dtg rumah I :(
Me : Eh sejak bila jd rempit? Okay, tgk lah dulu.
You : Takda tgk tgk, kena jugak.
Me : Ye yeeee.
You : Alaaaaa.
Me : Huh?
You : B marah :(
Me : Eh tkda ah, karut je.
You : Hm okay.
Me : Aiyk?
You : Dtg!
Me : InsyaAllah, kalau sempat. Kalau tak, jumpa malam k syg?
You : Okay b. B, I nak main badminton jap?
Me : Okay okay, bye. Love you. Take care, dear. See you.
You : Okay, love you so much. Take care too. Miss you love you. See you too, b. Jmpa I jugak harini, tak kira :(
Me : Okay syg, don't want that sad face.
You : Okay Okay :D Dah
Me : Main happy lagi, k bye muah.
You : Mwa, love you.
But then, I didn't manage to come and meet him in the evening. So I did meet him at night (The last night we spent our time together). So my mum sent me to his condo at 8 something. But he wasn't there then I messaged him.
Me : Mana you? I kt cabin dah.
You : Jap. I tgh siap nak turun b.
After a few minutes, my friends came and sit in a table with me. And we talked and laughed waay too much. And after a few minutes later then, he came but yeah, I know he wouldn't come to me first. So he went to cafe to buy cigarettes if I'm not mistaken. After that, you came to me and sit beside me. Then my friends seemed curious when they looked at arwah.
Alyn : Man, asal muka kau lain do?
Bay : Aah doh!
You : Mana ada lain lah. You, muka I lain ke?
Me : Ntah, mcm sama je kot haha. Lain ke dia, Eryn?
Eryn : Aku rasa sama je.
Fine then. When we got bored, we went to the badminton court to play badminton. And yeahs, I was the one who took the racquet and you asked me to put it back because you wanna spend your time with me at that night.
You : B, takyah lah main. Dduk sini dgn I.
Me : Ala kjap je lah.
You : Mhm, okay.
When I was playing the badminton, you can't stop staring at me while smiling. Everytime I looked at you, you were staring at me and smiling. And after a few minutes, I sat beside you and hold your right hand.
Me : You, knapa you lain harini?
You : Mana ada I lain lah b. I sama je.
Me : Okay okay.
Then after 10 minutes kot, Nisha asked me to accompany her to the lobby. And I said okay. But you refused to let me go. Then I told you that it takes only 5 minutes. Then you said k. When I came back to the court, you were playing the badminton with Icantrecallwho. When I entered the court, as most of the people know that the door sounds annoying and when I opened it, everyone will look at me and you shouted 'B!'. And I said 'Oh hai' with a very weird face. I was just making an annoying face like that hehe.
And at 10.30pm, he took me to in front of the court.
You : *Holding my face. B, pandang I.
Me : *Staring in his eyes.
You : Ingat ni smpai bila bila. I sayang you sgt sgt. Ingat ni! Sayang sgt sgt.
Me : I pun sayang you sgt sgt *Small laughs.
You : I sayang b sgt sgt. Jgn tinggalkan I?
Me : Knpa you ckp mcmtu syg?
You : Oh tak, just jangan tinggalkan I. K?
Me : Ye lah, I dah promise kan dulu? Knpa you lain ni?
You : Mana ada I lain lah syg. I sama je.
After a few minutes then, my mom called and asked me to go home. Then,
Me : You!
You : Haaaaa
Me : Nak I balik pukul brapa?
You : Ala tak boleh balik, kena dduk dengan I.
Me : Betul betul boleh tak?
You : Betul lah. Ala jangan lah balik :(
Me : Mengada eehhh. *On the phone, Ma, ambik lagi 10 minutes lah.
Mak : Okayy.
After 10 minutes later, mum messaged telling that she has already at the guard house. Then I told arwah, he quickly take my both hands and say
You : B, ingat apa I pesan dkt you td smpai bila bila tau.
Me : Okay okay, I promise lah you. Pinky swear? Hahaha.
You : Hehe pinky swear. *Kiss
Me : Babaii.
You : Babai, I love you so much. Take care.
Me : Love you too, and you too.
You : K bie.
Then I ran to mum's car and suddenly you shouted 'YAYA, I LOVE YOU!'. Then I shouted back 'I LOVE YOU TOO MUAH MUAH'. That was the last time I heard your voice, till now I'm still wanting and needing to hear your voice again, and all over again. But I know I can't. I hope you're in peace and surely, in a better and the best place.
When I was in my car, I could see the badminton court and you were there, flying kisses to me. That's so sweet of you. And that was the last time I saw your face, your smile, and your everything. When I reached home, you messaged me.
You : B?
Me : Eh hi. Cepatnya.
You : I rindu b.
Me : Alolo rindu you jugak sayang.
You : Tgh buat apa?
Me : Tkda buat apa apa. You?
You : Sama lah, lapar.
Me : Pergi lah makan.
You : Nak pergi makan dengan Alfiq jap boleh?
Me : Oh okay, pergi lah. Take care.
You : K, jap. Nak siap.
*I didn't reply. Then,
You : B?
Me : Yes?
You : Nape tak reply?
Me : Lah, ckp nak siap.
You : Okay okay, I dah nak pergi makan tau.
Me : Okay. Take care k.
You : Okay. B, nak drive jap. Japg I msg balik.
Me : Alright, elok elok.
After a few minutes,
You : B?
Me : Yo.
You : B jgn tinggalkan I?
Me : Sayang, knpa dgn you ni?
You : Tak, I takut b tinggalkan I.
Me : Mana ada lah :'(
You : Alolo sorry sorry, dah dah.
Me : Jgn ckp mcmtu lg k?
You : Okay okay, b I nak b ingat ni smpai bila bila. I sayang b sgt sgt. Ingat ni!
Me : Okay sayang, I pun sayang you. Lg lebih!
Then you didn't reply my message. I was kinda curious, but I don't know why that night I didn't feel like calling you. I did asked my sister, where are you, why don't you reply my text and so on. My sister asked me to call you but I just don't know why I didn't make the things that I used to do, which is trying to reach you and message you till you replied mine. I didn't want to bother you lepak with your friends, maybe.
So I fall asleep while waiting for you. I managed to sleep only for a few minutes. Then, Nisa called me. I didn't hear her calls at first. But then, my sister woke me up telling that there's someone calling me. I answered her call and I was waaay 'mamai' that time.
Me : Hello?
Nisa : Ya? Yaya okay tak?
Me : Okay je, kenapa?
Nisa : Ya, Aiman dah takda Ya.
Me : Huh?
Nisa : Ya, Aiman dah takda Ya. Wake up, Ya. Wake up!
Me : Jangan mengarut lah Nisa. *I end the call.
Right after I end up Nisa's call. Amar (Eryn's boyfriend) called me,
Amar : Hello Ya.
Me : Ha, ada apa?
Amar : Wei, aku dkt gate kecik Emerald ni.
Me : Ha, asal?
Amar : Wei Ya, Aiman kau dah takda au. Dia accident.
Me : Weii, betul betul lah.
Amar : Betul lah. Kau nak datang tak? Aku amik kau.
Me : Aaa, takpa ah. Bye *End
Then I quickly told both my parents that Aiman has already became arwah. My dad asked me to go take my wudhuk and pray all the best for arwah. So I quickly go and give Yassin to arwah. I repeat the surah, loads of times non-stop. There were loads of friends calling and messaging me but I managed to answer only some of them because I didn't know what to say. My mind was blank and all I thought that moment was, only ARWAH.
And the saddest phone call I received on that morning was from Hazmie. He cried when he was on the phone with me. We didn't get to say anything than crying out loud. I couldn't stop crying and Hazmie told me to be strong. I didn't say anything, I couldn't stop crying. Oh god, I can't believe I'm crying right now. Hazmie, thanks so much for the supports k. Sayang kau!
After half an hour later, my dad asked me to go to the hospital with him. My mum dad and my sister followed to the hospital. When we've arrived there, the first person I saw, was Kak Aisyah (Aiman's eldest sister). She came to me and hugged me waaay too tight! And both of us couldn't stop crying. After that, I hugged Aiman's mom. She was crying too but I can't believe that she was waay too strong accepting the fact that her son was not here anymore.
I met some of my friends there, all I can say is I couldn't stop crying. My eyes looked like asdfghjkl I don't know what to say. At the hospital, I didn't stop giving Aiman non-stop Yassin. Then, after half an hour later, someone shouted 'Amirul?'. Everyone stood up and quickly go to the 'forensik''s room.
And the only 'thing' we saw was, Allahyarham Amirul Aiman's body, right in front of our eyes. I cried out loud. And it was the last time I hold his face. He was so cold. And he looked different. There was a scar on his head. It was because the BANG he had in the accident. I don't know how to say this, my mind was so blank that time and I don't believe that I cried way too bad that time."
* seriously time bace bende niy wa nanges babe :')
